owl's go

at work today, more people talked about how sad it was that i was leaving. outside of work i spend little to no time with these people. i do not think they understand that i have no friends nearby. no one who spends time with me when it matters.

harm and vance's wedding was a very good time. i feel like it is the last time i will see a lot of those people. everyone promises to visit, and i do not doubt that i will see most of them in the future, but that seems far away.

this morning a wall of clouds looked like mountains in my rear view mirror on the way to work. the sun was coming up and it was yellow and orange, but the clouds were black and blue.

i am excited to move to denver; for the weather, friends, mountains, dry air. i hope we find a cool house to live in. i have been looking so much, but things are always so different when you're 800 miles away looking at a bad photo on craigslist. sometimes the first thing i check for is where the house pops up on google maps. if it's not south of denver and near downtown i move on. if we don't find something soon i'll stop doing that.

i have a page of thumbnails in front of me for a guitar company my friend andrew is starting. i have yet to start working on these more in depth. i wonder if he's given up on me. i feel bad.

i'm very ready to move and start what i perceive to be a real life for myself. i just wish i could take a few friends with me. i still have not found a job in denver. no one posts good jobs online, and it's depressing to apply for shitty jobs online when you're so far away. why do graphic design agencies use shitty words like "fast paced" and "hip" and "self motivated." i feel like i have to have messy, gelled hair and sketcher's loafers while i sit in a windowless room drinking red bull and crapping out tons of crappy logos for companies that will be belly up in 6 months.

maybe i'll just serve coffee again. free lattes is something i greatly miss.

love,
anthony